Interesting enough, a major influence on my recent skepticism, has been the lives of men who are supposedly doing God’s work on earth.
There is a church that had three pastors. Three man of God thus, bent of doing His will and advancing His cause, isn’t it? Three godly man who have set their lives aside for servicing the Kingdom of God and the needs of the believers. Problem is, they didn’t seem to get along with each other and set aside their differences. One of them has left, and the remaining two are long locked in a power struggle.
That, for me, is a problem.
Tree men, three visions, three goals. I don’t see much of God in that, sorry. If there would be a God (in the church), I would expect to see unity of vision and purpose. One God, one goal. Not three.
It is a problem, because we are told if we study the Bible, God will enlighten us. Yet these three men studied the Bible to a far greater extent than us mere Christians. It didn’t seem to enlighten them enough. I thus don’t hold much hope the Bible can enlighten me much, either.
It is a problem because we are told if we pray, God will help us. Yet with all the prayers of these three men and all the prayers of the church, God didn’t seem to enlighten them to get along with each other better. I thus don’t hold much hope prayer is gonna do me much good, either.
It is a problem because we are told that as we get closer to God, keep being involved with the church, we are also getting closer to each other. We are told all these things, yet believers can often be the most antisocial, self-deceiving, ignorant, unloving and cruel people around.
If these things don’t work, maybe there are other things that don’t work, either.